Hi there
yeah...yeah... Today is not my best day . I `m alone and I started cleanning my house and some bad memories came up.
Last Monday, I thought It was going to be another ordinary day I was going to my English class when I crossed Perth station I saw a friend .hmm... I waved my hands and she crossed by me and She act like she didn`t see me. That was weird = P
I felt rejected and I thought ..What was wrong with me? and I dont need this kind friend. She is too picky.I started thinking about her.Does she thinks she is better than me?.She is selfifsh and I am Mrs Nothing and in my heart I wanted she blow up and I had a terrible day.
negative ..negative ..negative feelings. This shows everybody I am not perfect and sometimes I make mistakes.
One of my mistakes is to being too friendly to anybody. TOO MUCH FRIENDLY ...It is not good.
I can`t be too friendly . Do you know why ? People will start think. She wants something from me.
People are afraid receiving love and gifts . They are afraid to receive something because they must return back .
When I was in Brazil I used to donor blood once a year, one day the nurse asked me , Who is the person you are donating? I needed to fill in the form. When I said nobody she looked at me and told me few people comes there to donate blood for nobody but She was very happy and asked me if possible I could donate plasma and I said Yes.
I gave my blood to someone , I didnt know who, but I was happy to do good to someone I didn`t know.
When I give myself so much to a friend and I never have a feedback. I fell sad.
I think the best is help somebody I don`t know who and I will not be hurt, because I expect nothing from them.
In the past ,I was very proud and sucessfull business woman , people came to me because I had power or in other words I had money and every one want to bec ame my friend.
When you decide to became a housewife or an unemployed woman you dont have money or friends. Only family ties.
Why I need to beg for your friendship?
I have lots of love surrounding me now and I have God who loves me so much and give me so much and He never asked I need to return back his blessings and in my heart I want to sing , sing and sing and I know no one is perfect only God.
